May was an interesting month for me. My family visited for a week, which was fun and also meant that eating healthy went out the window. Of course, I could have tried to eat healthier but didn’t. I also walked a ton and was constantly on the go, so it also didn’t make me feel very guilty. Okay, I didn’t experience any guilt. It was a vacation. 🙂 I also still struggled a bit with my mojo and some lingering lethargy. On the plus side, I am feeling a stronger commitment to my goals.
It’s not that I wasn’t committed before to getting healthy; I was. I was also still secretly hoping that it would be super easy. Maybe a magical pill or an insanely easy 2-minute workout would appear and melt the pounds away. This did not happen. It never will and I need to accept this and move on.
How Did I Do in May?
Okay. Not bad, not great. Some things were fails on my part and some were out of my control. The pool being closed for two weeks for some repairs was out of my control. The fact that I chose to do nothing versus subbing some other cardio workout was my (bad) choice. This has to stop or I will never get healthy or keep the weight off.
Otherwise, I did okay. Improved water consumption and taking my vitamins were pretty consistent. I am still not consistent with my gratitude practice, although this month was my best month so far. Meal prep was mainly focused on prepping for my family’s visit versus making meals for me. However, I did notice how much of a difference having ready-made meals helped me make good food choices. So this past weekend, I made some Cajun Shrimp and Andouille Sausage to freeze and overnight oats for breakfast. I also prepped a big bowl of melon salad that I will share this Thursday.
My Main Problem is I Lack Discipline
I am very diligent when it comes to work. The person who would stay up all night to get a job done right, if needed. But when it comes to my health — I fail myself. As much as I truly want to get healthy, I allow myself to make excuses as to why I can’t do this or that. When in reality, I can and should. This is not easy for me to admit, because it’s not only a bit embarrassing, but I am better than this. I also deserve better than this.
In the past, I made excuses as to why some people were thinner and/or healthier than I was. They have high metabolism. They have good genetics. I played the woe me card and tried to let myself off the hook for my lack of discipline. The simple truth is that most work hard and are committed to a healthy lifestyle. It’s not just luck, especially the older they get. They make daily choices to honor a healthy lifestyle. And I don’t. It’s not that I don’t know the “right” choice to make. I do. I just choose not to make them and instead have some excuse as to why I can’t. This must stop.
Next week, I’m going to talk more about my lack of discipline and how I’m putting on my big girls panties.
Keeping It Simple for June
Honestly, my big goal this month is to get disciplined. To stop accepting my excuses and do the work. I realize now that becoming disciplined is key to getting healthy and staying healthy. As much as I want a quick fix, even more so I want off this roller coaster of weight gain and loss and never feeling good about myself forever. Here are my goals:
- Swim 2 times a week.
- Add a weekly strength training workout.
- Drink a minimum of 48 ounces of water every day.
- Continue with my vitamin and biotin regiment.
- Practice daily gratitude
- Continue prepping freezer and make-ahead meals.
- Regulate carb consumption.
I have never been disciplined when it comes to eating and working out. PERIOD. Short bursts of discipline, maybe. But full-on discipline, never. It’s kind of scary because I can still feel some resistance inside me, and I’m also really excited because this will also make a huge, positive difference in my life and health.
How did you do against your May goals? Any tips on how to be more disciplined?